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I'm dealing with some bad processing right now. I happened across a person on youtube who fails at science comprehension on the most basic of levels. An extreme conspiracy theorist. I can't even laugh at it, it's so upsetting to me. I can't... it's... *AUGH*

I suppose the best way to explain it is using the analogy of my brain being as a record. It has it's path which has all the information already recorded onto it. Then someone or something will come along and makes an alteration of the pathway, scratching it and causing a jump which effectively reduces the information I'm able to receive and how exactly I'm receiving it. This causes confusion and I have to go back and replay that piece to try and understand what I've missed and why I've missed it. If the alterations make sense then I will replace that record with one that has this new and relevant information on it and that record will go from being a 45 to a 33 (lp). But sometimes the alterations are done by someone who's player has a bad needle. Their information is chaotic. So I'll get stuck for a few rounds or skip a large part. Then I try to go back over this information trying to piece together the missing bits only to find that I can't and every time I go back it will make the informational gap grow worse. So I go out and look at other people's records on the subject only to find that not only their records heavily scratched or broken, but they're not even 45's. They are all 78's and there is no such thing as a 33 on that topic.

It's an incredibly upsetting feeling which turns my brain to slushie and makes me feel dumber for having come across it. This particular person believes, you know what, go see for yourself. It started here and ended with me here. Can't explain what I don't get and the part that sticks me the most is that she doesn't seem to know how to use a camera to properly support herself and her ideas. I hate having such difficulty learning and processing things because it means bad information can't and won't move. Then I get upset, and then I end up ranting over it. So that's what I'm dealing with tonight, and it's going to take a lot of time to get over.

Anyway, trying to move on now.

Last week I got to go to the beach with Leon and James. I think it was last week. It was partly good, and partly bad. Partly bad because Leon doesn't have a proper extending leash, Todd went with and my mom had to leave us with both of them and James doesn't know how to deal with walking dogs very well. He's to controlling, so when things don't go exactly how he expects he gets a little funny. But it was nice because it was Leon's first visit and I actually got to see him go in water of his own accord. He seemed freaked out and hesitant by it at first, but I guess seeing Todd and I in it, and all the other dogs and people, must've triggered something in his head so he did this funny little jump and ran in after us. It was really neat and shocking for me. After that he started to slowly warm up to it more and more. Oh yeah, another bad part. I remembered my camcorder, but I forgot that it didn't have a memory card in it because I don't have a dedicated SD card for it. Only a micro and one adapter that I also have to share with my phone when I want to transfer things over to the computer. James took a few pictures with his phone though and he gave me those so I'll try to put them up tomorrow. :)


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Jul. 23rd, 2010 03:21 pm (UTC)
I think there's a rash of schizophrenics breaking out in the Seattle area lately. I don't know how many people I've encountered in the last couple of days who were standing there shouting like they were having an argument with some one, except no one else was there. And yes, some of the arguing was about how "they" always keep the secrets away from the general population or put in prison the people who "know" what's really going on.

They're really annoying but it's really sad too. I mean, these people are only like this because they can't get their medication because of repeated government cut backs on medical programs. Hmmm, maybe the government is out to get them!
Jul. 24th, 2010 07:42 am (UTC)
I think fox news, the tea party crap and other such political leanings have a lot to do with peoples paranoid delusions too. Not just a lack of medications, though that does end up compounding the problem heaps. From what I've seen even if they did have access to the proper medications through government programs I think a lot of these people would avoid it because of the government associations, citing mind control devices, death panels or other insane crap.

So sad, but what can you do?
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Jul. 24th, 2010 07:35 am (UTC)
Thank you. *Hugs* for you too! There is. :) I'm always amused when someone fails 3rd grade science so blatantly and publicly. And it reminded me a little of the ICP song Miracles. Fuckin' magnets, how do they work? Except in this case it was "fucking rainbows."

After that though, it got annoying for me fast. :(

As for thunder, Todd is. He's terrified of thunder and fireworks, and it's caused a lot of trouble for me in the past. Leon hadn't been, but I think this being his second summer around Todd and fireworks has made him more keen. He's picked up on a lot of Todd's bad habits which I'm none too fond of, but with his (Todd's) size and age, they can't be helped. I just have to hope they don't stick.
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