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I'm an idiot, as idiotic as they come

Man, today is like the day that Kurt died. The 10th fucking anniverseray since that fateful day when he blew his fucking brains out. :\ That's a really crude way to say it. I didn't realize it until I turned on the radio on the drive down to the library. Was listening to KISW. Normally I really hate that station but lately I've been hating KNDD more. They fucking suck for changing their playlist and shit. My god I'm in a vulgar state of mind. I really shouldn't swear as fucking much as I do. It's very unladylike. Heh, I don't know what I'm talking about. Lady like. Ha. I'm no lady. Kinda wish I was but I don't have the money or the title to be one. Eh, whatever. Yeah, so I'm just kinda sitting here drinking my last green tea and listening to The End's Nirvana tribute or whatever they call it. Well, it's Nirvana and Alice in Chains. Can't forget that Layne Stailey died today not too long ago either. Sucks but whatever. Almost thought I lost my CD's but turns out I just left them in the bunkhouse. That was a releif. Oh, and my headphones are fucked too. :'( I tried to listen to my cd player while waiting for my mom to pick me up. Wasn't going to well. No sound. Got home and checked it with another pair. Was just the headphones, thank god for that much. Anyway, I was pretty fucking drunk earlier in the day. Totally wasted. Wanted layton to go ask johnny to buy me a mikes but he left his wallet at home. Oh oh, layton made out with roz a bunch too. Neither of them remember it though. Makes me mad. I mean if he's gonna do that he had at least better remember it. Ass. I don't care that he did, that makes me happy, I just wish he would remember doing so. I wish I could stay in a permamant state of inebriatedness. That would be pretty fucking awsome. I don't get why most people feel the need to pass out when they're drunk. I really don't. Me, I just wanna sit there and think about stuff. Watch everything. Some dudes said something to layton about halloween and he responded with every day is halloween. Then the dude commented on how layton had 2 chicks. Like a pimp or something. Just kinda laughed about that. He was leading me and roz around by the hands. I can understand why he would have been doing that with roz, but me, I can function just fine drunk or not. You don't have to lead me like a child. Found a mostly full pack of malboro lite's. I hate malboros. They suck so bad. Djarums are good. I like cloves. Everything else is crap. Blech. Still feeling some afters from the shit. Will till I go to bed. Eh, whatever. I should probably shut up now before I make myself sound even more stupid than I have already.

I'm so happy 'cause today
I found my friends
They're in my head
I'm so ugly, but that's okay, 'cause so are you
We broke our mirrors
Sunday morning is everyday for all I care
And I'm not scared
Light my candles in a daze
'Cause I've found god
Yeah, yeah