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Mar. 1st, 2006

Bad mood. Shaking. So fucking stupid. Everything is left. Or front. Never a back or right unless it's left-right or front-back. Just watch me gesture. Nothing in my head. Can't think. Try to and can't. Just hurts. There's nothing there. Just empty and water. Sloshing around, occasionally leaking out my eyes when it tips right. Hate myself, hate myself, hate myself. Wanna just stay at home and cry. So weak. Just watching things fade in place. Watch the cars drive by while I smoke. They're off to better places. People with things to do and see. And me. Sitting. Watching the world pass me by with a solitary tear in my eye. Waiting to slide. My heart feels funny. Old. Sad. Tired. Scared. Broken. But mostly alone.

So very alone.



Picture of the day: Demon Slayer

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savvynavi
Mar. 3rd, 2006 05:51 am (UTC)
Left-right is awesome
It's like all the confusion caused my brain to tap into your thoughts, and I understood. Left is right. ;) I had fun on Wednesday, now that I'm not tied down with responsibilities we'll have to hang out again soon.
schwarzkatze
Mar. 3rd, 2006 10:28 pm (UTC)
Re: Left-right is awesome
Yeah, it would probably be fun to hang out again (with christina too) just don't ask me directions unless it's walking. :) Get terribly confused and confusing otherwise.
savvynavi
Mar. 6th, 2006 05:29 am (UTC)
Re: Left-right is awesome
Yeah with Christina! I still have yet to hang out with her. It must be done! Anyone interested in ice skating? ;)
schwarzkatze
Mar. 8th, 2006 08:44 am (UTC)
Re: Left-right is awesome
I've never been ice skating before. Wanted to, but... I dunno, it's just stupid why I've not been.
onebloodymess
Mar. 12th, 2006 12:27 am (UTC)
Re: Left-right is awesome
I've never been good on ice skates, but I'd be down to try again. :D
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