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I'm having a lot of trouble at the moment. And April has once again proven to be the most difficult month. Damn focusing issues.

In an effort to finally finish my GED, I'm trying to learn my multiplication tables, which I'm afraid I was never taught correctly in the first place. I've actually been trying to learn them over the past week and a half, and have been doing a TERRIBLE job. Can't memorize to save my life unfortunately and counting is always terribly slow. SO, it's causing me a lot of stress, which makes me push it off until the last minute possible, and because Macy and Callie's mom Rebbecca is the one tutoring me about it, it's compounding the stress that much more. Frustrating. The eights are being the worst because I can't seem to find any sort of a pattern or anything to get them down. :(

On april 1st, after I got home I got a letter telling me that my food stamps were being revoked since I'd been working more than 3 months (wasn't true), I could re-apply on a local level, and to sign and return the enclosed paper. And there was no enclosed paper to sign and return. After I was able to get back in to find out what the hell was going on I found out that they had neglected to give me one incredibly important piece of information about what to do when I finish working a job, that I have to actually go in to the office and give them a signed letter saying that I've stopped working. So a call in isn't enough, but funny, they don't say that in any of the papers, books or any of the times you speak. Kinda would have been good to know then. Anyway, it ended up explaining a lot and I hope to have it resolved soon. I also got a letter on saturday saying that while I'm still under the disability program, I'm no longer going to be receiving any payments and my medical is in limbo until I quit working, which is more than a little bit confusing and disheartening because I get more for NOT working than I do FOR working. It makes it feel like they don't want me to work, but I don't want to be that stupid person everyone always refers to who doesn't get a job because I'm getting free money or whatever else out of it.

I've also had a couple more issues, one of which almost caused me to quit. That I won't go into. Another was after Sakura Con, which I went to with James for my birthday. The Sakura Con issue was actually pretty bad, had a complex breakdown in the bus tunnels, resulting in the security having to call an emt for me. And like the other issue, I won't really go into the reasons why because all in all, it's unimportant.

I'm really going to make an effort to post more. I've been wanting to and it's been a little hard on me not doing so. I'm in the habit of getting so horribly involved in other things and that I will begin to put everything else off for so long that it will become embarrassing to think about and then I will begin to completely avoid it all together. It's like that with my email too. I've got around 250 in my inbox at the moment and I'm not used to seeing more than 25. So I'm going to try and teach myself how to prioritize my life, even if it kills me. Add in that I'm planning to get myself a kindle later this month because I miss reading terribly. I do expect this to be an incredibly painful endeavor. :) Maybe May will become more painful of a month this year then? Haha.

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fly_among_stars
May. 3rd, 2011 12:47 pm (UTC)
Yay, you're back! You were missed :)
schwarzkatze
May. 4th, 2011 06:33 pm (UTC)
Awww, I missed you too! I'll try to make a really big effort to stay back this time. :)
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