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It's a long day coming

For the first time in I don't know how many months, I'm not in any pain. None. Physical or emotional. I know it will all change in the morning when I awake, but right now everything feels... fine. I had, dare I call it, a nice day. Well, maybe not nice, but it's left me feeling very calm inside. I've surrendered up everything inside up to the fates and cosmos to do with what they will. Because in this moment, everything is perfect.

The book I ordered, the astonishing adventures of fanboy and goth girl, came and I was able to start and finish it in one day. Less than 12 hours. It's a teen-type book, it's written in pretty big text to fill up space, and it's only 310 pages so I guess that isn't much of a surprise. But I got it, started and finished, and it was good, just like I had expected. I also got all of my paperwork filed away, and had the most wonderful person there with me helping me every step of the way, even if most of the time it was just sitting there. He was still there and I don't think I'll ever be able to thank him enough or let him know how much he means to me. I love him a little more each and every day. And I know I shouldn't plan for things to last forever, I know that things rarely do. People, situations, plans, they all change. So I'm trying to take and enjoy things as they come. But I still have the tiniest bit of hope in my heart, boxed up and tucked away in that little corner where those special things go. Maybe. Just maybe.

Maybe I won't be alone anymore.

In the morning I know that I will get up and things will hurt again. And I will have many more things pressing on me that need doing, but for now I have the night and everything is alright.