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Happy birthday mom.

I'm tired and feeling more than a little bit of stress. It's got me on edge. Sunday I ended back up at my mom's where I could rest and not think about the house. She gave me a bunch more vitamins to take home. James has been joking that it's like taking a meal in it's self. :) I've been thinking how I need to get back into the habit of making him breakfast, it's the only meal he gets until he comes home from work at midnight, but was only able to get to it today. I've been very lax about it. I'll wake up in the morning coughing, get up for a couple hours cleaning before I get so tired I sit down and end up falling back asleep until he comes and wakes me up before he leaves for work.

I don't know what I would do without my mom around. She's always been there for me and the best friend a person could ask for. She has sacrificed so much time to help me. Yesterday she was down for quite a few hours helping me clean and keeping leon occupied. Today I realised that I have a sliver of glass in my foot and she came down to try and help me get it out. A glass broke on... saturday I think it was, and with the absolutely shitty lights in the kitchen I wasn't able to see it all or get it cleaned up entirely. Anyway, I've ended up with a shard in my foot that I can't get out and didn't notice until it was too late. So she came down to try and help me. I really shouldn't ignore pain, I just get so preoccupied with other things. Haven't been walking around much of late anyway, other than to walk leon.

Mike came over yesterday night. It made james happy, and was nice for me to see another person, even if I don't really talk to them. Sometimes he'll talk to me about how difficult things feel and how sometimes it feels like everyone is avoiding him. I get it and it makes me sad to hea him say that even though I'm quite sure it's not true. People are just jerks who are very difficult to work with. Can't live with them, can't live without them. :) Oh well.

Sometimes it's difficult not having friends to talk to or hang out with, espeically of the female variety, so I'm glad at the very least that I have my mom around.

I'll probably try to go back to cleaning the carpet after layton goes to bed. It can really use it.


And I think I've been doing this for way too long. Still haven't gotten out everything I'm feeling and thinking, but that might take another couple hours. Missed james' call and need to call him back. I'd also like to take leon out for a little while.

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schwarzkatze
Sep. 26th, 2008 03:23 am (UTC)
Thank you. It's nice to have people like you around who understand. I'm sure most everyone else would probably tell me to stop being so emo or something. :)
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