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Bandage came off today. It's nice except for the tiny problem where I can't move my hand down. Whenever I try it feels like there's a rubber ball in my wrist. When the doctor pulled it down after taking all the bandages off I ended up almost fainting. It was so embarrising. Anyway, if it's not better within a weeks time I need to call them back again and then I'll have to go into therapy for it. :'(

Yesterday at two in the afternoon, after about 16 hours, the bunny died. I had an extremely unplesant time with it and the only reason I didn't end up cry so much as I would have earlier in life over it was because I've been spending the past couple years trying to make myself harder. Trying to feel less. And I guess it's working. Maybe soon I'll be able to stop feeling anything at all.

My pet for 16 hours.
You can see one of the more major and more noticeable wounds better. We had a couple raccoons fighting in the trees today.

And I have a problem. I don't know how to talk to anyone anymore. It's so hard to do. Hell, I don't even know why I try half the time. I've stopped understanding what to say when people are talking to me. I still try to show interest in what is being said, because I really am interested in what other people have to say, but it's hard to know hard to know how to respond. And what's even harder is when I try and make up conversation and am ignored. Or taken seriously when I'm joking and vice versa. Everyone always expects me to be quiet, serious and depressed. Doesn't make me too happy which is why I try and converse back when I am spoken to. But, like I said, it's hard. It's hard to want to make others feel wanted when you don't ever feel wanted yourself. I don't want anyone to ever have to feel like that.

Picture of the day: I wont....

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